and so begins the wedding season...

Sometimes I dread summer... It marks the beginning of the wedding season... I have been to too many weddings... First I went to weddings to enjoy myself... socialise with friends and family now weddings have become like a household chore... I sit there and think when can I get out of here... now you might ask why? What's wrong with weddings? There is nothing wrong with them... I love the colours, food and laughter... however it makes me feel old... yeah a singleton who wonders when her time will come... So today I attended a wedding and as usual those old feelings of anxiety began to surface. While everyone is here to watch the bride... there are those match makers on the loose watching all the single ones in the room. So today when those anxieties arose... I told myself why spoil a perfectly good opportunity to socialise with worrying about what people were thinking... and I saw an automatic change... I smiled more... I felt more comfortable and that nauseating feeling had disappeared. Where as I was always looking for the chance to finish up and skip out today time flew by and it wasn't until my Mom asked if I had finished being a social butterfly that I realised half the people had left... Now I know when I get ready for the next wedding I need to attend... I am going there to have fun and chill out with friends... :)