Goodbye Friend

Goodbye friend - ( Some words that hopefully help me get through the loss of friends.)


The loss of a friend is like that of a limb. Time may heal the anguish of the wound, but the loss cannot be repaired. - Robert Southey


You never leave someone behind, you take a part of them with you and leave a part of yourself behind. 


I wanted a perfect ending. Now I've learned, the hard way, that some poems don't rhyme, and some stories don't have a clear beginning, middle, and end. Life is about not knowing, having to change, taking the moment and making the best of it, without knowing what's going to happen next.
-- Gilda Radner



A Laugh, A Cry, A Prayer, A song
Good-bye, my friends.
I say with a sigh
My pain and anguish
Uncovered emotions
Our Pasts Diminish
Into the race of time.
But Our Futures are Bright
Yes, I must be Strong
But How do you say farewell
To a Lifelong Friend?

12 Days

12 days...
Every emotion & feeling has been magnified in 12 days...
12 days of wondering where it all went wrong...
12 days of attacking the root of the problem...
12 days of thinking of the solution...
12 days of holding in a truth I choose not to disclose...
12 days and still going on... 

You know the kind girl now know the bitch in her

You're smirking because you think you won. I'm laughing because I know you haven't. Continue the game, girl. Karma's got my back. ;)

There is a time when the words revenge is sweet actually make sense... and One day for me that revenge is going to be very very sweet... watch out because the kind girl has gone into hiding and left behind the bitch. 

My little angel sister. :)

Jouty Jaan you made my day... Thank you :) You believe in me and thats all that counts for me now. 

Life is a B****

Yes I don't swear much but today all i have done is swear. I am pissed and pissed bad... I am usually a calm person but right now there is so much anger in me I don't know what to do. I thought friends were supposed to listen and advise and when you fought you hugged and made up or helped in that process but when you have friends like mine... who needs enemies.

If I am guilty of something then I will admit to that guilt but when I get blamed for something that i didn't do that really pisses me off. Oh and when I am accused of running away when i genuinely am not then yeah that kinda pisses me off too. As for contradictory statements... I am ready to admit I am a lay person who speaks Lay English and doesn't understand double edged sentences.

So people out there... when your friend makes a mistake... even if they have lied about something or given out your secret... make sure that you are not telling half truths either. Make sure you can be genuinely truthful before you accuse your friend. 

Reason, Season or Lifetime?

Reason, Season or Lifetime?

People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you figure out which one it is, you will know what to do for each person.    

When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally, or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend, and they are! They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part, or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered. And now it is time to move on.  

In my life people have come for a reason. I value the time they gave me and the advice they offered. Thank you to all of you who came to life for a REASON. :) 

Then people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn. They bring you an experience of peace, or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it! It is real! But, only for a season.   

To the season people. You came for a season. But when the joy of summer left, you left too leaving behind the harsh Autumn. You gave me an opportunity to grow learn and share. Thank you for making laugh and bringing joy into my life. :)

LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons: things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person, and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life.

For the people who are in my life now and will remain there God Willing. Thank you for being my support when I needed it. Thank you for still being there even when I made the biggest mistake. I pray that it stays that way till the day I leave this earth. :)