A Quarter of a century

Today is the day I was born 25 years ago... I have been alive a quarter of a century... I thought let me see what happened on this day 25 years ago... and this is what I found...
- 17th space shuttle mission (51-B)-Challenger 7 launched
- Ranger Larry Parrish is 5th to hit 3 HRs in a game in both leagues
- Tony Tubbs TKOs Greg Page in 15 for heavyweight boxing title


So it wasn't a very exciting day... but it was in my family coz i had come into this world with a bang... I was right on the dot... The date the doctor gave my mum was the day I was born... not one day late not one day early... right on time... 


As I reflect on life it seems to have gone quick... it was only yesterday when I was tearing up the streets playing with the kids on my street... from cricket to 7 stones to I declare a war (yeah i know that sounds horrible but it is actually a fun game).... 


As I reach this milestone... I wonder where life will take me next... What adventure awaits me... All I know is that i ready to face what life throws at me... 


So as the day comes to an end... I wanna say to me... Happy Birthday... you made it this far... another 25 shud be a walk in the park...:P

Self Esteem

I always thought you only could dent someone's self esteem... But that was my ignorance and today everything came to light. I learnt self esteem is like fine bone china that is so fragile. It is so easy to destroy a person's self esteem and raising that esteem back could take years. I work with young kids and I realised their esteem is really very fragile. Being a significant other to that child is so important and how you treat the child could really effect their future. So what's a significant other? This is the person or people who raise you up when you're down and praise and encourage you no matter what. Just one negative word from this person could destroy a person's self esteem in less then 10 seconds. So remember when someone comes to you to talk or show you something, they have chosen you to show you or tell you what is important to them. Don't turn them away be it child or adult. It could scar them and make them feel low and worthless.  
The following a bit of a poem I have read. I don't know the Author but I will find out. It's called Please hear what I am not saying.
" Don't be fooled by me. Don't be fooled by the face I wear. I wear a mask. I wear a thousand masks-masks that I am afraid to take off; and none of them are me. "


So remember what ever it is...If you are chosen as a significant other, Listen and advice/give praise. You don't know the positive effect it could have on the person who has chosen you.

Forest Skills

So today i started training on Forest skills and u may ask what is this? well for me it was a confidence booster. I am rubbish at outdoors and I have to say after the end of the first day I was itching to be back. Making tea/coffee/hot chocolate with kelly kettles... making a rainbow book mark... sticky crowns and string mobiles. So now you think I am a nutter. This is for kids but i have to say for the afternoon I felt like my kids at work... exploring different things and learning about different things. It was an just a wonderful experience. On day two we made wood discs by sawing the wood ourselves... that was the first time I sawed wood and I couldn't believe that it was so easy. Then we learnt about Elder wood... Did you know Elder wood is a native UK tree and has been around since the Ice Age... and its can survive anything... cut it down and it will grow back... its good for making flutes or mini beast houses...:P I cant wait for day three... learning how to make fire with friction... :D

and so begins the wedding season...

Sometimes I dread summer... It marks the beginning of the wedding season... I have been to too many weddings... First I went to weddings to enjoy myself... socialise with friends and family now weddings have become like a household chore... I sit there and think when can I get out of here... now you might ask why? What's wrong with weddings? There is nothing wrong with them... I love the colours, food and laughter... however it makes me feel old... yeah a singleton who wonders when her time will come... So today I attended a wedding and as usual those old feelings of anxiety began to surface. While everyone is here to watch the bride... there are those match makers on the loose watching all the single ones in the room. So today when those anxieties arose... I told myself why spoil a perfectly good opportunity to socialise with worrying about what people were thinking... and I saw an automatic change... I smiled more... I felt more comfortable and that nauseating feeling had disappeared. Where as I was always looking for the chance to finish up and skip out today time flew by and it wasn't until my Mom asked if I had finished being a social butterfly that I realised half the people had left... Now I know when I get ready for the next wedding I need to attend... I am going there to have fun and chill out with friends... :)

Drama, Drama and more Drama

I feel like I am going through a mid life crisis... whoa shocked... I guess you are... for you who know me know that I am still young... but life has thrown enough curve balls at me these past few weeks. There is just one thing I am grateful for and that is the family and friends who have been there for me. I know I have been acting like a child or sometimes like a .... (you know what I mean) I haven't meant to hurt anyone's feelings and I plan to be as open as I can about my feelings... Sorry guys (yeah I know I am going to get kicked for the sorry) and thank you for being there... I plan to be my normal happy self soon... :D